Holding On To Forever

ADAM
Returning to my drug-dealing past wasn’t on the agenda when I accepted the full ride to play ball at Cypress U. But Mom lost her job. And my sister’s medical bills are mounting. So, I’ve no choice but to change the playbook.

When Emily walks into my life, like a fallen goddess with the ultimate power to destroy me, I know I’m screwed. I should steer clear, but I’m the one supplying her poison of choice. Falling for her is a complication I don’t need, but the more she’s around, the harder it gets to walk away. She needs me, and I crave her more than the sport I love.

Now, it’s all on the line. Including the NFL career that’s tantalizingly close.

The stakes are high, but family means everything, so I’ll take my chances.

EMILY
It’s only a problem if it’s out of control. And I have it in hand.

Except a certain a-hole discovers I’m using again, and he threatens to rat me out to my folks. Mom’s president of Cypress U, and Dad’s the illustrious football coach. Appearances mean everything to them, and I’m a continuous disappointment. They told me I’d be out on my ass if I fell off the wagon, so keeping it a secret is my number one priority.

Until the super-hot all-star QB takes more than a passing interest in me. Adam gets me, in a way no guy ever has, filling my head with ideas of forever—and now, I want more.

Dating my dealer is a recipe for disaster, especially when it’s forbidden, but I can’t help myself.

Because I’ve fallen too deep.

And the hole is too large to crawl out of.

Holding On To Forever is an angsty, new adult, sports romance. Meet Emily and Adam and be prepared for all the feels in this coming of age story with a happily ever after.

Due to mature content and possible triggers, this book is recommended to readers aged eighteen and older. Please refer to the note at the start of the book. This is a full-length novel (93k words).

Adam and Emily's journey is emotional, difficult, and ugly but their destination is beautiful. You will feel all the emotions during this read and come out complete and happy at the end.

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“Emily.” Adam clicks his fingers, peering into my face with concern in his eyes. “You still with me?”

“Sorry. My mind wandered.” I clench my hands in my lap, swallowing back bile as my body trembles all over.

“You’re shaking.” He pulls me to his chest, and I rest my cheek against his shoulder, allowing him to comfort me. He smooths a hand up and down my back, and it’s such a tender gesture it brings tears to my eyes again.

Adam is one of the good guys. Last night and this morning have proven that. If I was a normal girl, I’d be crazy for him.

But I’m not, and I can’t afford to be.

I shuck out of his hold. “Thanks for looking after me last night.” I stand. “I should go.”

“Emily, wait.” He stands, threading his fingers in mine. “I know you’re scared. I can see it in your eyes. And I want to help.”

“Why me?” I tip my chin up, peering deep into his eyes.

He takes a big breath. “Because I like you and I don’t want to see you hurt.”

“Is that the only reason?”

He blows air out of his mouth, looking undecided for a few minutes. “I know all the reasons why you and I shouldn’t hang out,” he says, and my heart splutters in my chest. “But there are more reasons why we should.” My heart grows wings and soars.

“You want to hang out with me?” I blurt.

He rests his forehead on mine. “I want to do so much with you, Emily,” he whispers, and his warm breath fans across my face, igniting new flames. “But why don’t we start with being friends?”

“I don’t have many friends,” I admit in a hushed voice.

“Then it’s settled.” He hugs me to him, and I don’t protest this time, wrapping my arms around his solid body, and clinging to him like he’s my only lifeline. He tilts my chin up with the tip of one finger. “Now, tell me what’s really going on with Wes.”

This book had me on the edge of my seat. The gut-wrenching storyline of past abuse and addiction was so honestly portrayed the reader feels like they are walking in the character's footsteps. I wish I could give it more than 5 stars - this is a must read!!

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